Round II

So the time has come for us to start considering our next move in family planning.  For most of my adult life, I was not sold on the idea of having kids.  I was really enjoying life as just Jacob and Sally.  We could go to shows during the week and stay out as late as we wanted and it was no issue (this is probably the one and only thing I miss about pre-baby life).  We could get out of the house quickly and easily and without much fuss.  We could sleep in on weekends!  But then the ripe old age of 29 rolled around and we had a decision to make.  We weren't getting any younger and we needed to  figure out if later on down the road we might feel regret at not raising children.  That same year, our baby boy, Roman, was born.


What an amazing joy he is.  I cannot believe how lucky we are with him.  He is so happy and funny and full of character and is an incredible blessing.  (Almost) everything he does or says puts a smile on my face.  And I stop to think from time to time about how if we had decided to have children any earlier, we'd have someone totally and completely different from Roman.  If I hadn't called Jacob in from gardening that very second on that early spring day for a little romp in the hay, well, again, we'd have someone totally different making joyful noises around our house.  It's almost too much to think about.  And I wouldn't want anyone other than Roman.  That God sure knows what He's doing! Wait for it....wait for it.............perfection!  What a nice thought.

But I'm not really here to talk about Roman.  As I mentioned at the start, we're talking about child number two.

The above excerpt is the first half of a blog I wrote more than a month ago and then saved as a draft until I felt the time was right to send it out into the world wide interweb.  Below is the second half of the same blog.

And I really want to adopt.


Even when I didn't want kids, I always thought adoption was an amazing thing. At that point it was something that, should I ever decide I wanted kids, that's how I would do it.  Obviously, and thankfully, Round One didn't go that route.  But now I am starting to do some research.  Tomorrow, I will go to the library to pick up my reserved copy of Adoption for Dummies, and I will read it, and I will prayerfully consider if adoption really is the next step in increasing the Wright Family.  If it isn't, that is fine too.  I am happy to have my own babies.  I just think about how many children are already out there, waiting to be adopted and welcomed into a family of their own for the rest of their lives!!


Again, if this doesn't work out for us, I will be okay with that.  For now, I am just excited to really start researching the process.  It's always nice to have something to look forward to.

I put a lot of consideration into that blog post and took quite a bit of time to write it.  The very next day, I found out that our family is, in fact, expanding. Three tests confirm that I am pregnant.  Three because I just couldn't possibly believe the first two could be accurate.  I was on birth control.  (Side note, I take back every time I opened my big mouth to say that I thought people who got pregnant while on birth control just weren't using it right. Because believe me, I was using it right).  

I felt such shock the first several weeks that it was hard for me to get excited about it.  It wasn't until last Friday, when I had my first prenatal appointment and they brought in a portable ultrasound machine and I saw the blob that is our baby and its little heart beating that I felt real joy about this turn of events.  It was a big lesson for me about how our timing for ourselves isn't always God's timing for us, and he pretty much wins every time. 

I'm excited for Roman to be a brother :)